for having these sort of thoughts. I am always loving every single second of this but lust is a sin. Is giving in to lust a sin too? Why shouldn't be. It is like a cloud of smoke, travelling really fast and giving you no option. Making you choke. For me, they come like the cloud of smoke, only because I am allowing them to come.
Thus, I would go to hell for this crime and the selfishness that would inflict these few people who trust me for my loyalty and love. I hate myself but maybe I just need ONE person to stand next to me and lock me to the chain of loyalty to him huh?
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